I deserve all the junk food I ate today I think.

Gonna try to keep this short. So lately, I've been working at my brothers' girlfriends' mom's daycare. Haha mouthful. But I like it, and I like the kids still even tho it's been two weeks of tantrums and poopy, snotty, dirty kids. :) They just are cute and say and do the sweetest and funniest things. :) Sometimes.

Anyway, payday was today, and my boss wrote us checks. I'm used to a big corporation that just sends out printed checks that I make family cash for me, so I panicked and thought I couldn't cash that, because I don't have a bank account. I have been way too scared to go get one. I'm almost 22, and have been working since 17, and still didn't have one. Until today! I had a short panic, and then, I decided to go after work to get an account, and not let anxiety and nerves get to me. 

I've already been driving LOADS now, not as scared as I used to be of it. (It's out of necessity tho, which was good for me I think. It MADE me drive more that way. The center is a town over, and I go on a busy road :]) And then today, I walked in to the bank and got an account. Granted, my mom had to come with me to keep me calm and do SOME of the talking. (Not all of it like I had planned tho, I did pretty good.) But still. She has been telling me for years to get one, and today I decided I wasn't having any of my anxiety's bullshit. I had a good day when it came to that. I ordered my own food. I paid for my Wal-Mart stuff. I tried on a shirt (that I ended up hating) I drove on main roads. I got a fucking bank account and talked to the fucking bank lady. I did it.

I hope I can keep this up. I love feeling like this. I still was nervous and got a sick feeling when it came time to do all this, nerves getting me for sure. But once it was done and I drove all over town and all sorts of shit I normally beg others to do, I felt really decent. I needed a day like today. I'm very thankful I had it. Even tho I got a sunburn. Taking sunscreen to work next time for sure. 

Song of the day is Sunburn by Muse. I feel like I might have done this song before, maybe not on here tho. (But maybe on here. Sorry if it's a repeat. Listen to it anyway, it's that good.) Alrighty well. Have a good one! <3

PS I was just reading this over for major spelling and grammar errors, and I saw that the song of the day is Sunburn, on the day that I got one. I didn't plan that, but it's funny cos once I got off work, I wanted to hear that song, even tho I wasn't even thinking about my actual burn yet haha.

I love my dog now...and a few random ranty bits.

Skip a few paragraphs for the random bits if you want, cos the first chunk is about my dog. :)  And I'm sure it's not interesting to anyone but me. :D

I am not an animal person, at all. I don't like people's pets, I didn't like my step-mothers dog, and I REALLY didn't like the new dog we got after Riley had to be put down in July. We got a little wiener dog-ish dog, I'm sure there's an actual name for him but i have no idea. His name is Slinky. For the record tho, I am VERY against harming animals, animal abusers should be killed in my opinion, and if being a vegetarian wasn't so expensive, I would be. (I was one for 4 years when I was younger, so I know it costs a lot.)  

Anyway, the last few months, I have been warming up to him, since it's just me and him home during the day, and I'm asleep till 1 or 2 most days. (I don't sleep at night. I dunno what's wrong with me.) And Slinky is a pretty lazy dog, he loves to sleep or lay around all day and night. When he used to jump up into my bed while I was sleeping, I would make him leave. But since it's just been me and him, I let him now cos I feel bad. He loves my brother, and my brother always had him close by. But now he's got a girlfriend, so he's never home, and poor Slinky lost his buddy. Also, my mom told me Slinky has the brain of a 2-4 year old and now I can't stop picturing him as a little toddler, just wanting to play and nap. 

 So yeah, it's weird for me and everyone I know that I like a dog, and carry him around wrapped up in a blanket like a baby. (He likes it, I promise. He LOVES blankets.) And I miss him when I go with my friends or when my step-mother locks him in her room at night. (I think she's jealous he likes us kids better than her.) And now I look at all dogs and want to just pet them and love them. Slinky has changed my heart I think. :D For the better, I hope. 

<  Slinky's Halloween costume
   Slinky being a majestic couch princess.>

So yeah, dog rant aside, there was a petition to get the ban on Kinder Eggs in the US dropped. I don't think it got near enough signatures to work, tho I wish it did. My friends have got them (either on vacation or a sneaky relative has sent them.) and they keep telling me how good the chocolate is, and show me their fun toys inside. I think it's so dumb they aren't allowed here. Don't give your kids something small that says it has a prize inside. You know that prize is gonna be even smaller. Don't be stupid. I feel like I'm missing out on everything nice, and I have never in my life been on vacation and definitely can't afford one anytime soon, so it sucks that I won't ever be getting one.

My friend Cassie has started doing YouTube vlogs, and Cece wants to start too. So now I have friends I can talk to about filming and also film with. :) Hilary and Rachel have been very kind to let me film them and our adventures, but I think they think I'm weird for doing so, even tho Hilary does watch some YouTube videos that I share. (Like Crabstickz. :D) So yeah, having friends that know is nice. Even tho none of us are like, full time, loads of viewers whatever. I just do it for fun. I like filming my memories. I like editing it. I like when people watch my stuff. I dunno. 

Anyway, I think I will wrap this up. Song of the day is Anywhere But Here by Mayday Parade. Great song. Also, Fall Out Boy leaked their album a week early and you can listen to it for FREE on soundcloud, which I would recommend doing because it is AMAZING. And a YouTuber I have been watching (a bit obsessively, really.) is Sprinkleofglitter. (Louise) She's really funny and real about things, and shares a lot of her life which I like a lot, and has such a cute daughter and I just really love her. I think besides Dan and Phil, I would most like to meet her. And Zoe. :) She has a blog on here too, but I don't know how to link or I would. She does beauty, life vlogs, talks about things people want to talk about. (Her having a baby story has made me think twice about wanting kids anytime soon, the poor girl.) But yeah check her out. :) Search sprinkleofglitter blog and I'm sure you'll find it, or there's a link on her YouTube channel. Ok I probably should go to bed. I always get chatty when I'm tired. Ok. Bye for now! Have a good day!

Color Fest 2013

I went to the annual Festival of Colors at the Sri Sri Radha Krishna Temple, which is a town over from me, yesterday. I was and still am feeling much better about things after talking to my friend, and getting out with my other friends helped a lot more. It was really a lot of fun! It was my first time there, as well as one of my friends, so we really didn't know what to expect. 

Her dad dropped us off in the middle of the street since the traffic kept stopping, and we followed a crowd into the line where we paid to get in. Then we waited for our other friend Rachel, who had brought along a school friend since they had left early. We didn't know there were 2 entrances so we waited a long time before deciding to go in and look for her. We didn't expect the literally THOUSANDS of people wandering around, throwing colorful dust at us. 
                                                                                                                                                             
First, a guy walked up and threw some green on us, cos we were too naked or something. So we were excited to have some color and happy about it all. Then we continued to walk on, and I passed a man with his daughter on his shoulders. She looked down and dumped her bag of yellow dust onto my head, which was awesome. :) And from there, it's just people throwing color at you as you pass, or coming up to you and asking if they can put some on ya. My favorite was when we had been inside for just a minute, some guy walking passed me ran his hand along my cheek and chin, saying "You're beautiful." and smearing purple across it all. It was so funny and kinda scary to me cos I'm so shy, but it helped prepare me for what was to come with people just walking up touching you or throwing color at you. 


Hilary, Me, Camber, and Cece
 
We found some girls I know that I'm starting to be friends with, and we were with them for a while. At the bottom of this hill, there was a stage set, and a band playing some sort of music, with the singer shouting out "Peace!" and "You all look so beautiful!" and stuff like that, and I felt like a hippie kind of :) I threw my dust on random people and wasnt even shy about it. The cutest thing was this really small girl, probably 2 or 3, had a handful of dust, and her mom told her to go put it on someone. So she ran up to me and smacked it on my butt, cos thats where she could reach and I had my back to her. It was so funny, and her mom was like "oh shit." but I just smiled to let her know i didn't mind at all. 

Then the big color throw came, which is where the stage guys countdown every 2 hours, and everyone throws their colors in the air. There's loads of really awesome pictures online if you want to look it up, but I didn't get a very good one cos I'm really short, and I don't want to steal someone's picture to put on here hahaha. (I am making a color fest vlog tho, if you ever wanna look me up on youtube :]]) Rachel and her friend had to leave, so Hilary and I just decided to walk around, telling my other friends we would meet up later. We got frozen yogurt, which I had never tried. I don't think I will go back to ice cream. Vanilla frozen yogurt is pure heaven on a spoon.                                                           
                
      My face when I got home.                                                                         My hair :) I like it that way:)
We decided to leave, and my other friends came at the same time. I really like them. I met them through my friend that really helped me the other night, and they have been nothing but nice to me since I met them. :) They are lovely girls. Hilary's mom came to pick us up, and had to put blankets in her car cos we were a MESS. Showering it all off was pure hell, and it stained my hands, wrist, and face. I had a beard and a Hitler stache, and a smudge of purple across my cheek after scrubbing my face twice. I finally got it all off, and out of my hair, and then got ready to go to Hilary's for S'mores. We tried to build a fire but her boyfriend had to come out and do it for us, and when Rachel showed up it started dying. We had hot dogs with cheese in them, (well, Hilary and I did, cos Rachel is a vegetarian.) and some Corona's, my new favorite drink. (Rachel didn't have that either, she doesn't drink haha.) and we told funny stories and laughed and it was a good end to a good day, even tho the fire died completely and it was cold out. 

So it was a super good day, and I love my friends a lot and really appreciate them for taking me since my car isn't running, and I hate driving anyway :))  I haven't done a recommended music for a bit, so today it's a whole album. Comedown Machine by The Strokes just came out, and it is AMAZING. 80's Comedown Machine, Welcome To Japan, and One Way Trigger are my favorites. It's a bit different from older Strokes albums, and people are having fits over it, but if you have an open mind, you'll love it. Well, that's it for today. :) Bye for now. :)